Message #31933 of 31946 |
Dear Eric, Thank you for this words. I was just thinking should I share with you or not, my personal experience (which can happen to anybody.) Yesterday my son(43years) in talk with me reacted, in one moment in very explosive, violent way, out of his control, screeming, banking on the table , throwing things which were in this moment near his hand. (by chance, it was box with dussin of CD musik ,from some other friend ..) I was shocked but with some little distance.. like being inside and watching dramatical show .. |
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I went out of my flat telling him that he can go now home . (He is living in Stockholm) After that my friend Suada told me that I should not alow him to behave like that ...... She said that I don't help him if I don't put stop and show him that he should have respect.. She(and some other friend) thinks I should stop communicating with him... if he phones ..I should not speak with him.. |
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I said to Suada: If I don't speak with him because hi ofended me that means I will cary this wound in me..
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Now suddenly burden was not so haevy.. I was wittnessing drama...Being little more awake.. I was feeling little unpleasent..naturaly in such situation.. an I am little sad because my son is suffering... , It was tension, fear,desperation,agression in him.. but I cannot take it away .. He is not ready to take responsibility for his deeds,.. he thinks often it is fault of others..for his troubles.. (specialy his divorced parents)... he has to go through his lessons.. and "things are as they are." (wispered my 'dead' gurus...smilingly) |
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thanks for attantion to all who red it.. I'd like to hear how would you react in simmilar situation, when somebody 'explode' shouting bad words at you, banking on the table, throwing 'your' things.. (doesn't matter if this is your near or far related person) Would you be able to speak next time with this person when you meet him and he start to talk like nothing has happend, even if he is not saying ..forgive me.. It was real happening in my life yesterday.. But for me it was another bad scene from a dream-like life. It was in the evening. Today is new dream...outside all white and little more light...I go out in snow.. love z |
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p.s just now I opened mail of my son who write:"Miso came with peace yesterday".. he needed my help in one problem but I was not able to listen him.. he is not asking for forgivenes.. but he wants to talk..again it was my fault... and if I would listen advice of my friends ...I should not answer his mail.. but I answered... I follow my feelings and teachings of my 'dead' and alive masters! |
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